empty in all senses of the word~

sighs.

today was empty. one lesson. came back and slept the whole afternoon away.. havent done any homework.. namely math 216 homework.. but its onli due next friday so i suppose i still have time..

and my life is quite empty now too.. as in empty of feelings except that of dejection and disappointment and loneliness.. no dance.. nowhere to realli fit in.. its like i'm living life just to make the days go past so i can get home faster.. 3 months and 1 week left...

haven't even found a proper church or bible study group to go to either.. so i'm kinda empty in that sense too...

talked so long to hwying last nite.. it felt so good to hear her again.. and hear all about her life.. then said my hi's to other ppl in med fac.. at the end of their lecture, most of which hwying missed to talk to me.. haha. *guilty* i love u dear!

tt's the highlite of my week perhaps..

and it just always happens that things that happen always clash at the wrong times also.. but well there's nothing i can do about it..
rite now its like there's nothing much i can do about anything..
trying to seem happy and well and strong on the outside.. but dunno how much strength i have left to do that before it all gets sucked dry..