tied together with a smile

and coming undone...

pulling myself together, then falling apart, over and over again.. i'm just tired.

You are my strength when i am weak, You are the treasure that I seek, You are my all in all..

we danced the night away~

so the ball is finally over.. i remember thinking of it as the highlight of my year at stanford.. along the way it oscillated from being something i really looked forward to, to something i was really apprehensive about.. back and forth, back and forth...

am really thankful though, that it was a great night in the end.. things were as good as i could possibly ask for.. it was definitely the grandest thing i've ever experienced, my first real "ball" where there was tons of great dancing..

so here are some of the few pictures i managed to get with my newly acquired pink camera~! =) more of other better pictures from other ppl's cameras on facebook i think.. these are some snippets for mommie, daddie, jie and my dearies back home, since i've been totally inactive.. decided to surprise you guys=)

and now i have my saturday mornings back... time to take some serious advantage of my weekends..

pretty pink flowers to start the loong day~

girls from opening~

dress rehearsal waltz partner and polka partner~

salseros partner~

my best dip picture of the nite with john from opening~

clar and me..

keeley and me~!

pretty waterfall -in- the hyatt..

this aint a fairytale~

Taylor Swift - White Horse

Say you’re sorry
That face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you
Holding on
The days drag on
Stupid girl,
I should have known, I should have known

[Chorus]
That I’m not a princess, this ain’t a fairy tale
I’m not the one you’ll sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain’t Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it’s too late for you
And your white horse, to come around

Baby I was naive,
Got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
I had so many dreams
About you and me
Happy endings
Now I know

[Chorus]
That I’m not a princess, this ain’t a fairy tale
I’m not the one you’ll sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain’t Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it’s too late for you
And your white horse, to come around

And there you are on your knees,
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted but I’m so sorry

Cause I’m not your princess, this ain’t a fairytale
I’m gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rearview mirror disappearing now
And its too late for you and your white horse
Now its too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now

Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa
Try and catch me now
Oh, it’s too late
To catch me now

well into a new year~

so its well into a new year.. i've skipped the merry christmases, happy new years, and happy CNYs...

and here i am at almost the very end of the first month of 2009.. wow, time really flies huh..

finally took that trip to the beach today.. it was a wonderfully relaxing afternoon by the beach.. there was supposed to be a heat wave this weekend, so the beach was obviously packed.. so just two beaches down we found a little quiet surprise.. a nice little cove by a really high end hotel.. believe it or not they have a nice little public beach access there.. gorgeous blue sky, bright shining sun, wrapped in bundles of sweater and blankie with wind in my hair, fresh fruits and snacks.. really nothing more i could ask for.. wish i could have stayed there and not returned to the real world.. but here i am back in my room, and its time to face the world again..

many things running through my mind- questions, fears, uncertainties, hopes, dreams.. but in all of it i'm sure God is making me a stronger girl. i'm only human and emotions are sometimes overwhelming, and sometimes i just can't hold onto that perfect tranquility of peace surpassing all understanding.. but i'm learning, not by my strength, but by His alone..

taking one day at a time, and greeting each day with a smile~















by the way.. this song just made it to the top of my current faves.. its so sweet it just made my heart totally melt at the last chorus =)

Love Story - Taylor Swift

We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes
And the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony of summer air

See the lights,
See the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
You say hello
Little did I know

That you were Romeo you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go, and I said:

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet cause we're dead if they know
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

Cause you were Romeo I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was begging you please don't go and I said:

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

Romeo save me, they try to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real,
Don't be afraid
We'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story baby just say yes, oh,

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town I said:

Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think
He knealt to the ground and pulled out a ring

And said:

Marry me Juliet you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad go pick out a white dress
It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh, oh, oh

Oh, oh, oh, oh

Cause we were both young when I first saw you