don't wanna leave..

i've barely two days more and i realli dun wanna leave at this moment..

went out with te girls the nite before.. hwying chiara huilin and celene.. has a great girl hang out time at dinner and at timbre.. haha a bunch of girls at different stages in their lives holding hands and leaning on ach other for support.. am so touched u girls made time to be with me.. and thank u for the drink.. the fastest drink i've ever downed.. haha.. flaming lamboguini.. amazingy i dun think i felt any effects but no.. i'm not gonna test my limits. heh.. it -was- realli good tho..felt realli nice and warm inside after...

yesterday was a pretty good day~ came over to jie's in e morning... went to east coast to develop photos and picked my grandma up for lunch at tau kwa pau at joochiat =) raining realli heavily.... got all drenched.. but kinda liked the feeling of it...
went back to parkway, drove home to change into smth nicer for jie's birthday dinner.. dinner was delicious~! jap buffet at m hotel.. realli realli realli good jap food.

bleah that paragraph sounded awful. just a chunk of words..

after dinner i met up with chethan.. watched click.. missed e first fifteen minutes but it was a fabulous show anyways.. we both din regret the choice.. haha.. went coffee club to eat and talk after..
quoting chethan: "the you before was better for everyone else, but the you now is better for urself"
*bleah*

its perhaps true.. and while it may not neccessarily all tt bad... i feel realli saddened by it..
y can't e real world be changed..
y can't tt apparently unreal world where everyone was genuinely nice to each other and never wanted to hurt each other BE our real world.. y can't we do smth to make tt diff..

but he's rite.. i shd just be thankful tt i ever experienced tt blissful world of mine that made all bad things fade away.. just cos the ppl in my world then realli did care for each other so much and loved each other so dearly.. tt world where according to chet all the people were genuinely nice.. tt doesn't exist anywhere else... so thank u all.. my dearest frens and family here who've been there for me the whole time.. i realli will miss u when i go back.. and i promise i will try to not let e things around me get me further down than it alreadi has.. God has given me those experiences to look back on and to hold on to.. and they will be my inspiration~

meeting qt and wk later.. i hope i dun let my current pensiveness get the better of me.. its e last time i'll be seeing them in ages.. prob gonna eat dinner with mommie and daddie.. might go dancing with them for a while.. before i meet hwying anna and yl tonite..

two more days..
give me courage not to cry when i leave..

so much to do, so little time~!

time flies so quickly when u want it to go sloooowly~! =(

i'm flying off in less than a week~!
i thot i was supposed to haf two whole months.. how did it shrink so fast into 6 days? =S

this coming week is packing up realli realli fast~!
so sad i was supposed to watch the devil wears prada with hwying anna and yl last nite after sending kendrew off.. but my eye was killing me after dinner w kemmy and shuwen.. so kemmy sent me alll the way to e airport~!!! she was scared to leave me alone in case i couldn't see.. haha (thanx so much again dear... i owe u a big one) thank goodness wilson could give me a lift home after (thanx alot too~! =p ) unfortunately there went the movie tt anna already paid for.. shall haf to pay her back *sad* but e saddest part was missing out on the outing i guess..

oh wells~ at least i get to see anna and hwying tmr after dinner cos we're heading down to val lau's place for 412 gathering.. =) hopefully we can get another day tt we can hang out tog before i leave but from e looks of it..dots.. *sad look*

went for spa with mommie and daddie today~ and then met chiara and wk and john and puee and mj~! at miss clarity cafe and went to check out loof for abit.. din stay long tho~

hms.. plans for e week:
mon: dinner w zh
tues: meet al in e afternoon? then the council/med fac girls for dinner and timbre~! =)
wed: jie's bday dinner~! meet chethan after before he has to book back into camp
thurs: meet qt for lunch and wk after~!
fri: hwying's coming over at nite and going airport w me even at e oddest hour in the nite/morning~

heh. i wanna spend some time w my grandmother too.. haven't seen her tt much this holiday =( hopefully lunch at east coast w her?? and wonder if she's watched tt dvd yet *hopeful*

and hwying~! my dearest best fren who's been there thru everything and totally understands all tt i go thru =)

and of course every spare minute goes to admiring meredith and watching her grow more adorable and smarter and cuter each and every second~! =)

plans to go to hawaii in four months.. get to see meredith and my sister and kale there in winter~! xmas and new yr.. *pleased*

*laffs* need all this stuff to keep me occupied~! keep my mind off all possible depressing thots. *ugh* go away horrible thots~! =P

oh yes. face peeling again. =(
hopefully it has helped at least a litte. *scrunch face*

so... poofy eyed plus peeling face plus specs. heehee. tt's me at e moment.

oh yes~! i need to squeeze in a haircut.. and go exchange my laptop case.. and develop photos~!!!! so much to do so little time~!!! *panics* need to start packing alreadi~! *dread*

by e way.. this girl plans to revamp her life when she gets back to aa and wants to drag her lazy bum back to some decent form of dancing.. the kind that made her feel alive and made her the happiest she's been... amongst other revamping moves. *thinks hard*

ooh. long post. too much on my mind now.. its in a whirlpool~!
off to the warm comforting embrace of my bed.
nitenite~!

east coast reminiscence~

*sniffles*

going to parkway today~! i miss the east.. our east coast home has been torn down. =(
the place where i literally grew up.. from e age of 1 1/2 to 19... *amazed*

tt's a looong time.. no wonder i feel so attached to it..
thanks for all the amazing memories~ =)

*waves byebye*

pics from bintan part 1

some pics from bintan~







































rest of pics in mommie's at huilin's cam.. they'll come later~ =)

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glory fills the highest place, what can separate me now...

kale's birthday~

pics from kale's birthday~



meredith dressed up for her daddie~


happy family~!!! =) *beams*


the birthday party at jie's house~


dinner at pontini's..


baby sun tanning with intertwined fingers~ =P
hee.. so adorable~

okies.. bintan photos to come later.. *lazy*

baby warmth~

slumped on the couch next to sleeping baby is e most comforting thing~

she's adorable~! luv her luv her luv her..

met up w kendrew yest, had nice hazelnut frappe at tcc and then had nice bday celebration for kale at pontini's~

meeting kooi soon before council gathering tonite and hopefully can find hwying anna and yl for abit after.. *ponders*

at huilin's~!

at huilin's house now...

sent lawrence off at the airport just now and his mommie sent us back to her house =)

we're going bintan this weekend~! *beams*
finally one more time at the beach before i get shipped off to the faraway land once again for the next 8 mths (at least)..

realised i onli haf two more weekends left here in singapore.. leaving on the 2nd sept alreadi.. and there are still so many ppl tt i still wanna meet up with more.. like alina and kooi and br and so on... and more things i wanna do like watch movie and go far east and get alot of stuff.. at least the beach one is coming true =)

sadly tt means i can't go for the med fac rag performance at ps this saturday =( will anyone kindly video it for me~?? realli wanted to go see my frens and all..

oh wells.. update on meredith: getting cuter and more adorable by the second and basking in the praises of two doting adoring grandmothers one v happy grandfather an overly excited and bouncy auntie a father who she can stick to like velcro (she realli doesn't fall off him even when he's not holding her~! and always fits so nicely on him) and an overprotective (but oh so loving) mom who feeds her 24/7... haha lovely baby~!

God's precious gift..

oh yes reading daily bread on the train today and there was my fav verse rite smack on the page i turned to~! romans 12:9-16... about love.. =)

feel so comforted by His presence~

oh i want to know You more~

Just the time I feel
that I’ve been caught
in the mire of self.
Just the time I feel
my mind’s been bought
by worldly wealth.
That’s when the breeze begins
to blow I know,
the Spirit’s Call.
And all my worldly wanderings
just melt into His Love.

Oh, I want to know You more
Deep within my soul I want to know You,
Oh, I want to know You.
To feel Your Heart and know Your Mind,
looking in Your eyes stirs up within me,
cries that says I want to know You
Oh, I want to know You more.
Oh, I want to know You more.

When my daily deeds
ordinarily lose life and song,
my heart begins to bleed,
sensitivity to Him is gone.
But the Gentle Arms of Jesus
warm my hungering to be whole.

Oh, I want to know You more!
Deep within my soul I want to know You,
Oh, I want to know You.
And I would give my final breathe
to know You in Your Death and Ressurrection,
Oh, I want to know You more.
Oh, I want to know You more.
Oh, I want to know You more…


Steve Green

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ps. happy 22nd birthday jer and jem~! =)
May God bless you this year ahead with the sweetest blessings to come~!

happy national day~!!

happy national day everyone~! =)
*beams*

going for the parade later.. can't wait for my fav parts of it.. the flypast and 21 gun salute and especially the fireworks~! am all decked out in red and white alreadi. heh.

oh yes last nite we went to watch fireworks at esplanade bay.. i got there just in time for the fireworks to begin and stood there beaming at the pretty sparks in the pretty sky =)

at jie's place again.. meredith will be woken up in about half an hour or so to be fed again.. =)
she's e most adorable little baby i've ever seen... 5 days old and counting. =)

yay~! managed to get some pictures onto my shutterfly.. if only i knew how to upload them direct then i can go upload for jie's blog..



happy proud father minutes after she was born~!


happy family~! =) blissful.. =)


baby after feeding~


beaming me and baby~! =)


grandmother and great grandmother.. =P


baby came home~ =)

baby is here~!!

announcement a little late.. *sheepish*

baby is here~!

Meredith Su Wen Bounerba~!
4th august 10.39pm~!

*beams*

absolutely adorable...

august is here~

met up with a few councillors last nite including a 24th (karen) and a 22nd (lawrence)..=P john and mingjing and huilin and chiara were there too =) nice =) we're gonna haf another council gathering i hope~!

had la mian xiao long bao for the very first time in my life and actualli quite enjoyed it~! =)

then we went to nydc for dessert and huilin and i went to wala's for drinks in the open air and talked for abit.. before an impromtu stayover at my house.. =P we had v strong sangria and v sweet and nice strawberry daiquiri.. =P pretty ex tho.. =S

photos shall come in a later photo streak as we all noe how lazy i get with photos, no~? =P

yay~! today yuhui and jianwei and me went to bras basah and got materials to make stuff for our og~! beams=)
nice accessories for our necks =) and dun worrie it isn't girley cos i had yuhui and jianwei to keep me in check =) we finished it pretty quick in the mac's nearby.. =) such fun.. i luv making things.. thanx guys for coming down and helping..

realli hoping saturday goes good.. ppl haf put in so much effort into it=) so far my og has quite a few confirmed ppl.. get v happy everytime someone replies me to tell me their going.. =) *beams*

yay~!

side note: i haven't lost any weight in fact i think i may have gained weight.. which led me to my dancing streak tonite at home.. prancing around like e old days while watching rj dance nite from last year. miss dance club..
worked out a little sweat and felt so good just letting myself move freely again...=)

daddie helped me record the last year's dance nite into dvd so i can bring it w me *beams*

dancing makes me so happy.. i just wanna dance again.. prob is how.. *Shrugs*

may's coming over tmr morning to swim/tan/lunch =)

oh today i also went shopping w mommie and seiyu bum equipment.. hehe she bought two blouses from there.. i must say they're pretty pretty~=) funky mommie. hehe.

jia you jie jie~! a few more days~! come baby come baby come out quick~! *bounce bounce*

random thots~

.a few random thots.

1)had lunch at parkway sakae sushi today~ --tt's e most exciting event of e day..

2)meeting chiara and hopefully a couple of other 23rds tmr evening for dinner~!

3)i miss hwying... she's still in shanghai =(

4)i need to remember to return dvds from last week's girl's nite in by thursday~!

5)i want to go to a nice beach again. anyone wanna go? *hopeful*

6)may's coming over swimming on friday and i think lyd can come too =)

7)kendrew's got news to share with me.. hurry up and quit your horrid job and catch up with me!

8)chethan wants to go rollerblading on sunday.. but its a sunday~!!! =(

9)haven't spoken to alina in a long while.. shall i call her?

10)exactly how long is silent labour? *frowns impatiently* come on baby~! u can do it~! dun u wanna see e world faster??

eeks.. randomness..
waiting for mommie and daddie to come home for dinner after dropping e car off at jie's place.. just in case silent labour turns into ouch labour. *hms*