*sniff sniff*

bleah..
having a stuffy nose in fall is no fun~ =(

oh wells..
had halloween celebration last nite~
was pretty hilarious more than scary i suppose..ppl strutting down the road in the icy nite wearing nothing but swimming trunks and a ladybird strapped to his back.. or kinky nurse outfits with skirts that might as well not be worn.. (how do they ever survive in this temperature?? *ponders*)

hmz.. well today its much warmer.. about 15 degrees amazingly..
just finished my dance 101 paper today..
no more papers for the rest of the term alreadi! =)
wat a slack course.. although i -did- spend quite some time on my paper..

*shrug*
hey mommie and daddie and jie and kale~
so how was ur thai lunch? *dreams of nice singapore food*

i miss home. i miss singapore still.
i miss daddie and mommie and my cute grandma who goes dancing and cycling..
i miss jie and kale and their funny remarks and fun outings and competitions
i miss hwying loads.
i miss my frens who were always there for me
i miss my bed and my comforter and all the additional stuff on my bed-- they were also always there for me..
i miss the food~ its never the same here...
i miss church.. with all the nice ppl who ever so faithfully and constantly keep me in their prayers..
i miss dancing! alot alot alot..i feel so lost without real dancing.. i feel like there's no me without it..

yeah basically i'm missing everything.. and most of it i doubt will ever be the same even when i do get back home..

thanx chaybeng~!

guess wat was wrong with my stupid project?
i displayed "YOU WIN!" instead of "YOU WON!"...
and -that- cost apparently 11/40 points~!!!
its ridiculous..

anyways i realli wanna thank all who helped me with the project.. jerald, junhui, edwin neo(for spotting the spelling error), jackson (who made the effort to ask edwin to help), martin.. and anyone else who helped...like val and chris and jem who were with me and encouraging me while i was pulling my hair out..

but yeah *especially* chaybeng for helping all of us with all our projects, not just this mastermind one, even though u dun even need to take this course~! and for giving up ur precious time even tho u may have homework due or even midterms on the next day~! and relentlessly scrutinizing pages of code trying to help... we all owe him big time~

THANX RAYN~! =)

*PULL HAIR*

8 hours of staring at the computer..
i've been working on this ever since i got home nonstop other than half an hour of dinner and 15 mins of shower.
5.30pm to 1.30 am.
and i -still- can''t get it
its a measly 8/40??!!?!?!??!
shall i carry on?
or shall i give up for tonite...=S
*sniffS*

computers just dun like me.

val says:welcome to michigan engineering.

dear val and chris~

all e best for ur eng 100 and ur chem e quiz tmr~!
i'll be praying for u both...

i noe i can't do much to make things less difficult and trying...
but just noe that i'll be here for u if u need to vent, to complain, just to let things out...
all i can do is to try to be here silently...
and yeah u'll be in my prayers..
u can do it~! jia you...
sounds cliched but i haf faith in u~!

thanx val for being e best roomie and getting me thru this far so far away from home..
i wish i could do more for u..
wish i could cheer me up the way u always do
and say the rite things like u say at the rite times to make me smile and feel all better~
cheer up~!

above all~

thanx for reminding me of this song~

its beautiful...

and if i din remember it incorrectly offhand...

"above all powers, above all kings,
above all nature and all created things,
above all wisdom and all e ways of man,
u were here before the world began

above all kingdoms, above all thrones,
above all wonders the world has ever known,
above all wealth and treasures of the earth,
there's no way to measure wat ur worth..

crucified, laid upon a stone,
u lived to die, rejected and alone,
like a rose, trampled on the ground,
u took the fall, and thot of me...
Above all..."

promised pictures~

pictures i promised to put up...
its such a lazy day~
went to hmcc in e morning.. had holy communion..
realli missed home at church.. and realli felt quite helpless and hopeless..
so much homework but i realli dun feel like tackling all of it..
oh wells.. but i must keep reminding myself to take things one at a time..
plus its a perfect day to crawl into the reassuring warmth and comfort of my bed..
*DreamY*
needs to sleep away all the frustration and escape from life.
2 months till i get home~!
i'm halfway there.. i'll be home soon..

val agrees with me.. math 216 makes us go yan hua~!
math 216 kills...
*sighsez*
ok stop complaining.
pictures pictures~!


daddie bought me cold stones ice cream~! savoring it in e car.. =)

nite out at navy pier with daddie.. he took this picture for me..


daddie driving me around chicago


girls at penang restaurant~ just after saying byes to daddie..


we went up to the john hancock observertory and its so pretty up there~! the view is breathtaking..




us at the cheesecake factory~ yummy cheesecake we shared three~!


i realli realli *Realli* luv the lake--the waters and the sky~!




did i put this up alreadi?? i dun think so.. but i think its a realli good picture=) taken by jem..=P

us on the ferris wheel~


three girls of 1986~! that's in front of Lake Michigan rite next to Northwestern.. i wish i were there.. can go walk walk by the lake everyday when i'm xian..
i luv waters and skies.. and this place has it all..


val and i match e pretty trees~! fall colours are gorgeous...

can u believe the lake is just right there? rite behind us~!


chris and i in huisin's living room~

us with our lovely kind host huisin~! hey dancers.. remember huisin? =P


dinner at popeyes on e way back...

"family dinner" =P

hold on for one more day~

"Some day somebody's gonna make you want to
Turn around and say goodbye
Until then baby are you going to let them
Hold you down and make you cry
Don't you know?
Don't you know things can change
Things'll go your way
If you hold on for one more day
Can you hold on for one more day
Things'll go your way
Hold on for one more day"

nice song~ =)
this goes out to everyone who's stressed and down or xian or.. just not in the best frames of mind..
hold on for one more day...
live one day at a time..
live for the moment!
and we'll all pull thru everything together...=)

jia you val~!
luv ya roomie~
u always have me! =)

and to dearest hwying:
luv u loads... ur always so close to me and so there for me even tho we're at opposite ends of the earth..
thanx for being my blessing~!

fall break was gorgeous~!

--driving along ann arbor the day b4 fall break--

back from fall break late last nite~!


was a realli good break.. after all that horrid craziness last week..
BUT i've recovered from all that.. and thanx to all who showed concerned for me =) thanx for caring...=)

anyways yes fall break was awesome~
so many sights in such little time... everything was so beautiful and the was just so breathtaking!

christine and i after cheese cake~

navy pier chicago skyline~! its like a postcard

lake shore drive~

basking in e moonlite at e end of the pier~


precious times spent with my daddie =) thanx daddie~! was so nice seeing daddie again =)

dim sum restaurant!

chicago theatre


hotel carpark~!

krispy kreme =) *munch munch* they're e best!


and more precious times spent with our special "family" in our "circle of trust"=P

i feel so blessed and happy!

haha u guys are e best~
and reali like my family here =)
thanx for the best fall break i could ask for!

but now its back to work.. *xian*
eng101 sucks. realli realli frustrating to debug~! *grumbles*
okok we shall all work hard and look forward to our next break =)

we just had pizza dinner in our room.. drove down to kroger's and got domino's... use the car before we return it tmr.. =P

okies shall write more about fall break and upload more more photos (i got many many=P) and link my albums real soon! this is onli the starting glimpse *beams* i'm not even halfway thru with e photos~! more to come...
*promise* =)

i take tt back~

pissified.

wat i said earlier-- maybe not.
maybe the world can turn upside down in half a day..
not going dude to study today anymore.
dun need to get even more pissified.
dun need to see the whole world turning black and get sucked along into it..

somebody help me to hold on to that thin thread..

1 down 2 to go~

i'm suffocating.
me235 and me240 are so intimidating..

but i'm still thankful..
even in e midst of all this anxiety and worries, exhaustion and emotions, there is still some peace and comfort that transcends all understanding..
its thru the hard times that u'll sometimes learn to cling on harder to faith and hope..

three more days and i'll be done~! for now.. and i'll get to see daddie.. and go haf fun with frens =)
Thank u for everything=)
For all e good times and the bad..

jia you everyone~!

dear everyone who's taking math 216 tmr~

all the best~! =) have a good nites rest so our brains will be nice a fresh tmr~! =)
ooh.. esp ppl who are taking two exams tmr.. martin and aaron?? =P
all e best for ur ME 211 too!
tho i doubt either of u will read this but oh wells..=)

God bless everyone~! =)
and then after this week we can *all* go for our nice fall break *beams*

**why am i so oddly chirpy at the start of a crazy week?? *puzzled with myself*
haha. i think i'm high from too much studying... *bounces around*

1.30 am at the dude~

*yawn*

i just spent the last hour trying to finish up my stupid math webwork.. so many careless mistakes and typo errors.. frustrating!
feeling quite down now.. and helpless~
i'm lost in this new world with new everythings to discover...

taking a break here now.. and i still need to study me 235 before i can allow myself to go home..

looks like i'll be missing my last bus=( walk back to baits in e cold~!*dread*

jianyang just told me that he's gonna enter professional salsa competition with yanqing, our teacher, back home in singapore~! *wow*
all e best jianyang~! =)
sigh all e awesome things going on back home..

-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~
to my dearest best fren back home:
i miss u!
dun feel so bad about it my dear girl~
dun let it get u down..
be proud of urself for standing strong and making hard decisions...
things will ultimately work out for the best.. promise~! =)
God is always watching over u and giving u wat he noes is best for u..
u're not losing anything or anyone..
if anithing, ur gonna gain a wonderful relationship that will truly bless ur heart and ur life in e end=)
u deserve it.. cos u've truly been a blessing to so many others.. and esp me~!
and no matter wat happens, i'm always behind u in any step u take and i'm proud of u dear girl~! *hugs*
u'll always be in my prayers...

gloomy friday~

gloomy day~

its so sad to see ppl around me sad...
if onli i was better at comforting ppl and if only there was more i could do make ppl feel better =(

i hate feeling helpless when ppl around me are sad=(
somehow sometimes seeing ppl feel sad feels worse than feeling sad urself..

hope u're all feeling better~!
and hope little bunny cheers u up my dearest roomie*hopeful*
u'll all be in my prayers and take heart~! in awhile all the bad things will seem insignificant and the good things that come out of it will reveal themselves..
perhaps all we/I can do now is pray..

on a lighter note..
bree and sam came to say hi! stumbled into our room at 3 smth am.. sam is quite gone.. =P laughing hilariously plodding along in zig zag lines..
they asked how we could do work at unearthly hours...
wells.. val can but i can't.. that's why i'm dozing off now and my brain isn't working..

so yes i shall turn in now..
nites everyone~

ok that din quite work out.
my graphs look weird and i'm stuck
and i'm not at dude anymore.
=(
means i didn't keep my resolve.

*sighs* shall just wait till saturday lunch at kianleong's and get help from him then..

din go dance today...
too stressed up.. wat's up with me??
i shd haf just gone and maybe i'd haf felt better..

had a good laugh on e way home from the dude tho..
val and jerald are utterly hilarious.. talking in some secret language that both of them can actualli understand~!
christine and i agreed that fall break shd be pretty amusing..
maybe we'll laugh until we'll haf abs~! =P

all the best val for ur chem e midterm tmr
and christine, for ur mse midterm~!
God bless u both =)

*panics*.. selene!!! 3 papers next week!
go study. NOW.

-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-
"Let your tender mercies come to me, that I may live"
--Psalm 119:77

ode45???

bleah...
how to use ode45 on matlab??
wats tspan? =S
shouldn't haf taken ME240 before finishing the eng101 class...
am terribly lost..
computers suck!

at least i'm done with ME235 work for next week..
just two more sets of homework left for next week!!!
this horrid computer assignment for ME240 and math web4...
=(

*determined*
i must finish this NOW.
wun leave dude till i get this done!
*scrunches face*

comments make me happy~

yay yay
thanx to u lovely ppl who leave me comments..
they cheer me up so much~!

my replies are in another comment in e same post..
just realised that maybe u guys wouldn't look there.. so yeah.. look there~!

thanx again~ u have no idea how much those words can mean to me! =)

matlab~!

studied matlab till 1.30 am in the dude last nite.
*stoned*
8.30-5pm day today
*more stoned*
engine 101 exam at 6pm..
*panic*

*deep breath*

"I sought in the Lord, and He answered me; He delivered me from all my fears"
-- psalm 34:4
--- a little something from heartlight in my email yest...

tt helped make me feel better..
maybe it'll make ur day better too.. *smiles*

=S

stress~!

too much homework piled up next week with three midterms..

need to clear them now but the lecturers haven't reached there yet!!!
=(

can't wait for fall break.

unspoken~

bleah

i feel very terrible now.
some things u feel, but u're too afraid to say..
=S
isn't that i dun trust u..
i do~
just hard to get it out of my mouth for fear of wat might happen after.
its too silly for me to admit

bleah crappy post.

gonna shower...

[make me feel so bad val~!
realli not tt i dun wanna say
i realli wanna tell u but dun dare
but since i wun say it out..
its the first out of the four..
*hush*
but anyways it's nothing now..=P
there.. wonder if u can remember which order u said it
haha
not angry anymore? =P
i'm baring all!]

uploaded pictures~!

thanx to deares val i've learnt how to link my albums to my blog!*beams*

no more uploading problems.. =P

see below for the frankenmuth and cedar point albums~!

oh but just for fun..prelude~
val chris and me at frankenmuth~

mug mug mug~

today we went to first united methodist church~

and the ambience was realli pleasant and peaceful.. realli traditional and all.. daddie i think u might like it there =) choir and pews and childrens choir.. even handbells to go along with e hymns! tho i din noe any of the hymns..

and it was world communion day... so apparently christians all over the world partake in holy communion this day.. so i saw our singapore flag along the side aisle of the church.. and then i thot of home.. this time esp my frens in church.. and thot of how church was back home.. yeah..

then the rest of the day was mug mug mug.. finished two assignments and studied eng 101!!! but next week will be totalli crazy with ALL the homework due and THREE midterms!

yay.. going to chicago and illinois in fall break.. and i'm going to meet my daddie there~! am excited.. *jump jump*

k.. shall continue talking to val.. we're having an intense secret conversation~

*shivers*

its getting colder~!
reached onli 2 degrees celsius last nite..

midterms are coming!! so fast it seems as though school just started not long ago.. dunno wat to expect and am getting stressed by ppl ard me all wanting to get full marks..=( i'm not even aiming that high.. i just wanna settle down first and get into the flow of things slowly.. sighs.. does tt mean i'm lazy? *ponders*
oh wells.. just do wat i can and trust in God.. God is above all things and yeah.. i just have to learn to leave things in His hands rite? just do ur best sel~ =)

so many things are going on at home~! happy stuff i guess.. and i'm realli happy for u=) u made my day by confiding in me.. thanx for always being the best fren i could ever ask for and for being there rite from the day we met and remember i'll always be there for u~! *hugs* u'll always be in my prayers..
sorry i can't be realli there -there- for u more..


anyways.. long due photos.. haha~

prob seen this on val's alreadi.. two weeks ago at yost skating rink~
right after a nice indian cuisine dinner with my og~










val and me and our microwave popcorn~
look at the glee in our faces =) it always smells so good *munch munch*












and we always so happen to colour code on wednesdays~
totalli random and unplanned!
the past two wednesdays were pink as u can see.. =P













the view on the way to cedar point~! it was so beautiful..
can see the horizon.. if i'm not wrong its lake erie.. *ponders in awe*








and the demon drop was the first ride we took~

this is the first upside down ride of my life~! u can see the loop in e background.. this huge thing is the first big drop...

u noe wat?
i'm having problems uploading the pictures
i'll figure out how to link u all to shutterfly instead..