the end of week 5 already?

its weird to think that week 5 has ended and i'm halfway through the quarter now.. my final quarter as a student, possibly for the rest of my life..

just ordered my cap and gown for graduation, picked daddie up from SFO this morning and just got back from dropping him off for his flight back home.. hm. the next time i see him i'll have graduated and be officially home for good and about to start work..

then on the way home i was thinking.. wow. i'm starting work in august, that's about just 3 mths away. where was i 3 months ago? its scary to think how long ago that was and how so many things have happened between then adn now, but yet equally if not more scary that it doesn't seem so long ago..

so this time thing.. its really a mystery, i can't decide if it passes fast or slow.. cos it does both, and sometimes mysteriously at the same time too.. can't decide if time is for me or against me.. time heals, but time passes and what's lost is lost forever. So then that reminds me that i really should cherish my time and make the best of it and stretch it to the max, but sometimes when things feel crappy or when i feel i'm hanging in the middle, then i just want time to fly by and bring me to a point where things aren't so uncertain, so unsure..

hm i think way too much for my own good.. its just one of those transitions in life when you know you're not gonna be where you are much longer, you know a new phase is coming up, and you're not quite sure whether to embrace that or not, and hence kinda feeling neither here nor there..

yes. basically hanging in the middle. and yes, basically my mind is doing its useless wandering thing again. hm.