don't wanna leave..

i've barely two days more and i realli dun wanna leave at this moment..

went out with te girls the nite before.. hwying chiara huilin and celene.. has a great girl hang out time at dinner and at timbre.. haha a bunch of girls at different stages in their lives holding hands and leaning on ach other for support.. am so touched u girls made time to be with me.. and thank u for the drink.. the fastest drink i've ever downed.. haha.. flaming lamboguini.. amazingy i dun think i felt any effects but no.. i'm not gonna test my limits. heh.. it -was- realli good tho..felt realli nice and warm inside after...

yesterday was a pretty good day~ came over to jie's in e morning... went to east coast to develop photos and picked my grandma up for lunch at tau kwa pau at joochiat =) raining realli heavily.... got all drenched.. but kinda liked the feeling of it...
went back to parkway, drove home to change into smth nicer for jie's birthday dinner.. dinner was delicious~! jap buffet at m hotel.. realli realli realli good jap food.

bleah that paragraph sounded awful. just a chunk of words..

after dinner i met up with chethan.. watched click.. missed e first fifteen minutes but it was a fabulous show anyways.. we both din regret the choice.. haha.. went coffee club to eat and talk after..
quoting chethan: "the you before was better for everyone else, but the you now is better for urself"
*bleah*

its perhaps true.. and while it may not neccessarily all tt bad... i feel realli saddened by it..
y can't e real world be changed..
y can't tt apparently unreal world where everyone was genuinely nice to each other and never wanted to hurt each other BE our real world.. y can't we do smth to make tt diff..

but he's rite.. i shd just be thankful tt i ever experienced tt blissful world of mine that made all bad things fade away.. just cos the ppl in my world then realli did care for each other so much and loved each other so dearly.. tt world where according to chet all the people were genuinely nice.. tt doesn't exist anywhere else... so thank u all.. my dearest frens and family here who've been there for me the whole time.. i realli will miss u when i go back.. and i promise i will try to not let e things around me get me further down than it alreadi has.. God has given me those experiences to look back on and to hold on to.. and they will be my inspiration~

meeting qt and wk later.. i hope i dun let my current pensiveness get the better of me.. its e last time i'll be seeing them in ages.. prob gonna eat dinner with mommie and daddie.. might go dancing with them for a while.. before i meet hwying anna and yl tonite..

two more days..
give me courage not to cry when i leave..