estatic~!

hi hi~

i'm totalli estatic and surprised~!!! *jump jump jump*
we won the amateur salsa competition and 3rd for professional~! *shock and awe* was realli freaked out cos we din even practice much and onli had the whole choreo two days before the comp.. heh.. but thanks to yanqing and justin and jy and everyone there who welcomed me back even tho i deproved so much i felt pretty demoralised and of course to melvin for putting up w my last minuteness~ =P
*bounce bounce bounce*
i still can't believe it..

apologies for totalli not updating my blog.. i am totalli STRETCHING the mere 11 days i haf here at home~
promise i will def put up all my pictures and account every detail of everyday of this wonderful holiday~! *beams*
took many many pictures~! happy happy..
=P

hmz.. time to sort out my plans for tonite..for ushering in the new year~!
bye bye 2005..
its been full of ups and perhaps more downs than i could have coped with.. but with grace and the many blessings i've been given like my family and loveliest frens, i've pulled thru.. and i've def learnt so much more this year than i could ever imagine~

time to let go of the past hurts and pains, yet cherish the precious memories..
time to take hold of the new year and the new opportunities and many blessings in store for us~! =)

here's to the new year~ *smiles happily*

blessed christmas 2005~!

i'm home and estatic to be home~!

i started tearing the moment i saw mommie and daddie and hwying standing at the airport waiting for me.. my heart just swelled with an inexplicable amount of joy =)
*beams blissfully*

same thing today when i went to church and saw all e dearies there.. hugged them as hard as i could and started tearing from too much joy of seeing them again~! i luv u all so so so much.. u haf no idea how much it means to me to be home~!!=)*jump jump*

waiting for my aunt and my dearesrt loveliest grandma to come over with the BABY~!!! elodie~!! she can almost walk now i heard=P i luv this place i luv my home i luv everything here (except the heat)=P

spent last nite with hwying~ and kendrew came along to see us for awhile.. thans so much for making time for me~! i luv hwying so so much~! and i'm realli happy fro her that she now has dehan.. who's a darling obliging boyfren.. haha even came to the airport to see me~!!! *amazed*

i've got so much to tell and many photos to show... but now all i can think of is cherishing eveyr single passing moment here with the many blessings ard me i cannot even begin to count~! my grades are worrying but at this point there's SO much more to life..
thank u God for giving me these precios moments.. for taking me away from these temporarily so i learn to be so much more thankful and appreciative of them~!!!

*to much to say and no words to describe*
i've got so much joy and love to share~ its overflowing~!

*bounce bounce bounce*

to all the dear ppl in new york~! u guys haf a great time~! =) haf a real blessed xmas~! i miss u guys too~! heh..
here's a shoutout to serene dearie too~ e onli brave girl putting up with 8 guys this xmas.. haha
is there anything i can get for u all from home~? anithing at all~?
there's so so much joy and blissfulness within me its overflowing and i can't wait to share it in any way possible~! i wanna give everyone BIG BIG HUGS~!!!! *beams*

blessed xmas everyone~! its the most special time of the year.. =)

pack pack~! =)

finished ME235~!
*jump jump*

went ok.. now just praying and trusting God that everything will turn out ok..
pack pack now~!
packing up the room and packing stuff into my suitcases..
tmr this time i'll be in the airport waiting excitedly to board the flight..
*ponders dreamily*

going shopping later~!!
w esther marmut and edwin..
last minute picking stuff up for everyone i can think of~!

ok will cont packing now..
later~!

thank you Lord for everything this semester and thank you for bringing me thru it~! =)

val goes home~

bye bye val~!*waves sadly but yet w a tinge of excitement*
her goinghome means it'll be my turn in two more days~! *beams*


val is packing now..
maked me feel very excited.. i think i'm more excited than her even tho its not my turn yet...
so excited that i haf no mood to study for my last paper~!
ah~!!! me 235.. uh oh..

am happy for val~! =)
but i'll miss her for the 2 weeks or so that she's not in the same room as me bouncing ard and saying the oddest comments..
like dun look dun look~! then a few seconds later.. look look~!!!!
haha ok no one else will understand the last statement except val chris and me i think.. haha

anyways.. bon voyage to val~! have a great and blessed christmas..
we've gone a long long way..
thanx for being e best roomie for these four months~! =)
*hugs*

four days to home~!

four more days~!
two more papers~
then i can fly home to see everyone and everything i love =)

am comforting myself w chocolate now~
ate a milky way and just ran down to buy a caramel crunch...
*Sheepish*

yesterday was a pretty fun day~ met chris' mom and sis and aunt.. and they're so cute and funky~! seeing them all together realli gives me the warm fuzzy family feeling~

we all went sledding for awhile and then went to saigon garden to eat~ then trudged thru the diag in e biting cold to steve and barry's to buy souvenirs and pressies for ppl at home~! which i cant name here cos otherwise the surprise would be all spoilt=P

church today was realli interesting too..longer than usual.. but i realli pei fu the brave ppl who went up to share their lives and experiences.. it must haf been frightening and scary to let out so much that's so close and perhaps hurtful.. but it reminded me again that the trials we go thru can realli strengthen us and strengthen our faith and walk with God.. and at the end of it all we'll be refined and refreshed and we'll be able to share our stories with others dear to us~ and perhaps God will allow us to touch other ppl's lives just like others haf given so bravely to touch ours..

i'm in need of some comfort indulgences.. =P
been feeling a little light headed today~
back to my caramel crunch =)

snowman, snowball, snowfight, snowmessage~!

math exam went pretty ok today~
am thankful.. =)

came back and slept the afternoon away and then woke up went online and searched for salsa music.. still thinking about joining that competition.. =P *ponders excitedly*..

unfortunately.. it clashes with e council gathering on 30th dec.. how sad.. the nicest things that happen *always* haf to clash~! *grumbles*
life's like that..

anyways back to e point being... i found this webcite called www.salsastream.com.. and it keeps playing salsa music~! =) *beams* so i changed into my shoes and skirt and turned my room into a salsa floor~! haha.. val wasn't in tt's y i could afford to do tt... =P heh..

got myself realli happy for awhile after..=P
went for dinner then jem jer val and me played with snow~!!!=)
made big big snowman =) and threw snowballs at each other.. fun fun =P
but got realli cold and icy..
and val and i made our mark on the baits wall.. =P
haha ok i'm pretty incoherent so i shall just put the pictures up.. =)

one more week and i'll be on e plane home~!
*yay*


us and the snowman~ =)


the making of the snowman.. rolled this HUGE HEAVY bulk of snow -up- the little hill.. quite stupid i noe.. more efficient to roll down, not up rite?? =P


our little snow message on the coman house wall~ =) nice nice =)
my idea~!
*beams*
val says she can just imagine a proposal message written like tt.. =P
val and her wedding dreams~ *winks*


this was a long time ago photo from edwin's cam who -finally- sent it to me
proves my point how much weight i've put on..
heh.. this is the "before"...

-this- is my "after"... *cringes*

heh
ok la it was a nice picture despite bloated me.. cos roomie val looked realli nice.


we were at rayn's bday dinner last sat.. heh.. the girls =)

and the effect were caused by...


caught in the act being a pig.. and realli looking the role too..
wat an unglam pic.
i shdn't even post it..
haha oh wells. tt's y must put smaller version.. =P

*stares blankly*

tt's exactly wat i did when i was doing my ME 240 exam today..
*stares blankly*

it was a crazy paper..
just cos the last midterm's avg was realli high the prof decided to make this a kiler.. now we just haf to hope that the paper everyone else is sittingf or next week is equalli if not more killer than this paper.. cos i dun even think i can get a passing grade~

but i guess even if i did do realli badly i can be thankful that i -did- study and try my best and i guess i have no regrets.
Thank You for getting me thru one paper.. Three more to go..
shrug
*stares blankly again*

twirls and whirls~

i miss dancing~

alot...

yearning to immerse myself in that passion that once burned so strong when i lived and breathed to dance~

looks like tt one dream tt stayed with me for my lifetime is sadly fading away..

3 days to finals and 11 days to home sweet home~

the Wedding Song keeps playing over and over and over and over and over and.... u get wat i mean~ on val's side of the room~!
*head spinning from too much of the song*
haha but its ok val.. its a sweet song after all. and val's new no.1 wedding song=P

ah! still can't get my me240 computer assignment and eng101 project up..
bleah onli managed to study two chapters of ME240 today.. not realli considered concrete studying of those two chapters in e first place.. haven't even started for math and *breathes in*
okok...
i can get thru this week~!!!!... rite? *hesitant*
me needs prayers..=)
thank u all back home who haf been constantly praying for me ad getting me thru this far..=)

haha rayn is so funny.
had a "double double" conversation online today~

extract from our conversation (scenario: me asking computer shen for help in computing project)--

~selene~ * says:
thanx thanx
| ®å¥ñ |™ says:
sure sure
~selene~ * says:
rayn rayn!!!
~selene~ * says:
beams beams
| ®å¥ñ |™ says:
sel sel~
| ®å¥ñ |™ says:
laughs laughs
~selene~ * says:
i haven't laff laffed
~selene~ * says:
in very very
~selene~ * says:
long long time
~selene~ * says:
jump jump
| ®å¥ñ |™ says:
ha ha
| ®å¥ñ |™ says:
so so
| ®å¥ñ |™ says:
are u are u
| ®å¥ñ |™ says:
laughing laughing now
~selene~ * says:
yes yes
~selene~ * says:
hahahaha
| ®å¥ñ |™ says:
oh oh
| ®å¥ñ |™ says:
good good
| ®å¥ñ |™ says:
clap claps
~selene~ * says:
kk
~selene~ * says:
yay yay
| ®å¥ñ |™ says:
加油！加油！
~selene~ * says:
rayn rock rocls
| ®å¥ñ |™ says:
haha
~selene~ * says:
cant read read
~selene~ * says:
chinese
| ®å¥ñ |™ says:
oop
~selene~ * says:
on my msn
~selene~ * says:
haha
| ®å¥ñ |™ says:
sad sad
~selene~ * says:
sniff sniff
~selene~ * says:
haha
| ®å¥ñ |™ says:
i said i said
| ®å¥ñ |™ says:
jia you jia you
~selene~ * says:
back back to
~selene~ * says:
code code
| ®å¥ñ |™ says:
ok ok
| ®å¥ñ |™ says:
me me
~selene~ * says:
thank tahnk
| ®å¥ñ |™ says:
too too
| ®å¥ñ |™ says:
gd gd luk luk
~selene~ * says:
=) =)
~selene~ * says:
smile smile for rayn rayn!
| ®å¥ñ |™ says:
haha~ ~

haha oh wells. i guess my doublifying words has rubbed off huh??

feeling v bloated~

i feel so bloated now..
bleah...
but it was a realli good dinner anyways so no regrets at least for tonite~

went for rayn's birthday dinner at ann arbor brewery & co. (i think) tonite..
its along main street and the food there is fabulous =) most ppl ate fish and chips cos its suppposed to be realli good there.. but i ate this patty melt thingey.. nice burger with melted swiss cheese.. we had realli huge onion rings too for appetizers.. but they were pretty oily and gross.. made me feel like throwing up after.. but e dessert was -so- good~! irish sundae~ *beams* supposed to be onli for 21yrs and above cos of the bailey's inside.. but oh wells~! was realli nice.. esp since i've been cutting myself off dessert from abt three days ago.. this was a realli nice treat =)
guilty but simple pleasures of life..=P

bleah back to eng101 and me 240 computer assignment now.. i can't even start revising for my finals which is in four days time.. cos i can't even finish my homework~!! *worried*

i realli need to get thru this week and at this point it seems impossible.. tho i noe i haf no choice and i will haf to face the horrors of the week ahead~
*sighs*

haha back to rayns b'day...we had a snow fight last nite~! heh.. and rayn was kinda gone by then... his floormates had a party in his room for him.. they are a realli friendly bunch of ppl i must say.. =P
had za's cheesecake~ =P

and silly me~! i feel so stupid.. i wrote on his birthday card and wished him happy 19th instead of 21st.. heh *sheepish*
sorrie rayn~! din mean to..
his nick today became "selene, i'm 21 not 19.."
*oops*
how embarassing =P

oh edwin might be coming to church tmr~! yay for edwin~!

and i luv hwying dear~!!!
i just watched the videos she made for me before i left again today..
she's such a sweet fren and the best i could ever ask for~!
watch until i could tear.. i miss u so much dearie~
ur e best =)

i'm so random today..
i'm utterly exhausted and would realli like to fall asleep in bed now.. my head is starting to spin...
but no.. homework beckons.. and i must must do smth about it...
*yawns*
wonder how efficient i'll be in this state?? *ponders*

mommie and daddie~!
i wanted to call.. but it was like 4 am ur morning time.. and i figured now mommie's prob still in church and daddie's prob still playing golf..
so yeah.. just to let u noe i'm still missing u all and thinking of u all~! =)
jie and kale too~! how's everything? hows e holiday season?
kale would prob luv e snow here i guess.. its all over the place

my eyes can hardly keep open anymore...
nites everyone in ann arbor
haf a great sunday afternoon everyone back home in s'pore~!

mech e mech e mech e...in e midst of snow

mech e is overwhelming my mind..
its very worrying to have a midterm in let's see... *counts fingers*
5 days time~!!!!!! and not to haf started studying for it cos there's just too much homework due~!! its crazy.. wat's e use of a study break if ur exams start on the first day of it.. and how do they expect us to revise if there's onli one more lecture left and the professor goes.. "ooh we haf to cover 50 pages of material in our final lecture"
*scrunch face*
wateva...
this is called taking a break from me homework by complaining and grumbling about it to e whole world. *litte laff*

oh wells..
amazingly thru all this i still have peace~! and i am still managing to smile.. i must be crazy..
wells i guess its called the peace that transcends all understanding~!

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."
Philippians 4:6-7

has always been one of my fav verses and one of those that brings me thru the toughest times of my life.. ever since i was in primary school... =)


and yes sha its thanks to you as well that i'm smiling~! =P
u're awesome dear girl~! and i'm so glad to haf met u thru ballroom too..
ann arbor wdn't be the same without this amazing (and cute) girl who accompanies me in my random cravings for icy smoothies and coffee blends and bubble tea and wat nots...=P and randomly stumbles across my blog and leaves comments that make me smile.. and calls me up w fun random talk.. and plans to hang out~ =)
haha sha... many guys wd be so envious of me huh?? =P

by e way it snowed a crazy lot last nite~
its practically a foot thick... at some places u can't even tell which is the road which is the pavement animore.. and trudging thru fresh snow is pretty fun..=P
at least val and i still think so for e moment..
sel luvs val! it rhymes. =)
how random.

ok. sel needs to get back to work~!
sel also needs to go shopping for xmas gifts and souvenirs for e special ppl back home~
anyone wants to go shopping with me~??? =P *jump jump*

FRUSTRATED~

i'm so so so frustrated with horrid calculations i just CAN'T GET RITE!!!!!
*pulls hairs*

bleah
got so much homework its crazy

two more ME 235 assigments
ME 240 assigment
ME 240 computer assigment (I HAVE NO CLUE HOW TO DO THIS!)
Math web 11
Math Lab (which isnt even counted cos i'm not gonna do it myself)

all this by next week!
i have a exams next wed and thursday and i can't start studying cos of all this horrid homework~!
i want to scream~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*deep breath*

sorry for venting
i'm just so FRUSTRATED now at 1.30 am i've been working on ME 240 since before dinner i cannot get the freaking answer.

help me have the patience and faith to trudge thru this..
breathe..
i'll be fine..
it'll be over soon
all will be good
all -is- good.

blessings tt cannot be counted~

i've learnt alot these few days.. and it just reminds me that i'm placed here and now for a reason.. and God brings people into my life at the right times for a reason too..

i must admit to giving in to my misery the past days.. some things hurt and i just couldnt run away from them.. i guess even if i could perhaps i wouldn't bear to run away from them either.. i guess i just tend to hold onto to things more than i'm supposed to..

but i've figured that i'm truly blessed in more ways than i can imagine.. and all this is temporary and fleeting.. it'll all go away and all will be beautiful and we'll see how everything falls into place..

u're rite jer~ the things u prayed for and the things u said..
thank you for giving up ur time and bothering to pray for me and listen to me~
God bless u even as u continue to bless those around u, for u have blessed me with the words God gave to u..=)

thank u val and chris for the times spent chatting, be it about silly things, fun things or serious things, thanks for letting me in and sharing ur lives w me..
u both too were God-sent in my life and i've learnt so much just listening to and being with u guys.. =)

some things in life may hurt intensely for abit..
but there're so many more beautiful blessings that i can't even begin to count..

thanx qt~

for letting me bother u in e middle of nowhere and calming my nerves~

thank God for a fren in you=)

let God~

to let go is to let God..

He's in control of everything~

I'm powerless and vulnerable..
but i wll trust in Him..

Lord, give me strength~! I need u..

flower quickly fading~

Who am I
--Casting Crowns

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You're

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

this song touched me today~

its snowing pretty heavily outside..
the floor's all glittery...
looks all pretty and suits e x'mas timing..

did some x'mas shopping online today~
victoria's secret and aeropostale~
dunno if the gifts will be ok or will arrive on time..
*ponderS*


pensive and thinking..
i shdn't be..
but i am~

just a snowwy saturday~

its a snowwy saturday~
ok maybe not snowing anymore.. but there's a sheer layer of snow on the ground..
surpirisingly we dun feel all that cold.. maybe we're getting acclimitised to this.. its around -4 degrees celsius outside..

just came back from our usual saturday brunch with the normal food.. french toast, scramble eggs.. wat's new...

we went to ncrb (noth campus recreational buidling) to workout... was prob my first proper workout here~!
=P

cycled for 42 mins.. burned 235 calories. according to the machine.. =P
but later ate chinese takeout for dinner and put everything back on again.. *sheepish*

oh wells.. dreading the time when i step out of the airport and ppl start telling me i visibly put on weight.. =P haha.. but i onli haf myself to blame.. ice-cream is just too comforting to miss =P

sudoku is finally finished~! =) after -five- nites of chionging it.. *beams*
but we stil haf to work on our comments to hopefully get more style points and stuff.. oh wells

will probably go for ballroom later.. haven't been for it since the competition and at this rate i prob wun make to tryouts for advance team next sem even if i wanted to try.. *ponders*

i need to dance~! can't wait to get home to salsa again.. or just give me any dance~!

19 days till i fly off.. =) not that far away.. but so many things to accomplish before that.. hmz..

thinking of singapore...
thinking of all the people i miss..
thinking of the sweet memories we shared back home..

miss u all~

22 days and counting~

22 more days till i get back home again~!

for now.. sudoku is killing my brains.. there has been 3 sleepless nites over this horrid project~

e outcome of it is -so- not worth the effort put it~!
still hasn't passed the autograder~!

just this one more major computing project~ then hopefully nothing ever like that ever again in my life~!
*smiles*

joy from within~

*Exceeding Joy - Hope*
--hillsongs~

I have found exceeding joy
Jesus answered when I called
This name that has saved me
Pure love that embraced me

Mercy, grace eternal life
Brought from darkness to His light
While lost in my sin He
Raised me and made me live

My soul magnifies the Lord
My heart joys in God my saviour
For He lifts the lowly
He's done great things for me
I will sing, praising evermore
He is mighty and Holy is His name

I will lift my head up high
Praising Jesus through each trial

Though I have not seen Him
I love Him completely

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

selene noted today that the onli time she
stops eating or thinking about eating is when she's
sleeping.. *feels guilty and piggish*

off to dinner at bursley~!
*sheepish smile*

computing-- brain powers combined~

late nite sudoku meeting at ziwet house~!

there are a total of 6 of us here working on sudoku tt's due this sunday~

chin wei, chunyi, tianhan, junhui, jer, me~
bleah..
we're almost done with validate matrix.. now trying to even understand wat's going on with playGame..
*deep breath*

we can do this~!
*determined*

tired.. me wants to go home and shower and retreat into my warm comfy bed~